Lunch - There seems no point to the stress and tension,
the careful sidestepping and tactful conversation.
I try to sit back and look upon this scene from the outside, as it plays out
again like a broken record. The same false niceties and snide remarks, age
providing a respect that may not be wholly deserved. I consider the release and
relief I would feel if I could remove my children from this damaging
environment, but perhaps the control and self belief required to withstand this
charade is teaching them something they will need in life. I bite my tongue.
She can say whatever she likes to me, it does not touch me, but if she speaks
to my son in that tone one more time....
Brisbane - The city flies past my window and I promise myself I will come down
again soon and visit the friends I haven't seen for ages and walk the streets I
never have time to walk. Sometimes I think I want to live here again. I love my
town, I love my beach, but here are things that I love too. Live theatre and
live music and a little bit of style. I have only been to see a live band once
in the last six months. Perhaps I am greedy for life, do I think for some
reason that I should be able to have it all? I look at my children, the truth
is, I want them to have it all.
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